Monday, July 27, 2009
Studying the Study 349.
I've assembled a group from the chaos of schedules and disparate lives. We have accomplished the social phenomenon of 'gathering' and sometimes I think that that is what the work is really about – demanding that this event take place, this rehearsal, this dance, this performance. It is exhausting and sometimes I am resentful to leave my cozy home to fight the traffic and mass of humanity to go to something that seems to cost me far more than I receive. And then I am there with them, these incredibly intelligent movers and beautiful thinkers, and I sink into this practice, this being present in our bodies, moving, creating movement, attuning ourselves to this fine listening.
We dance, I lead. They are skilled followers, sensitive to sublime subtleties. We make a thing, an event that lasts 10 minutes and 49 seconds. Sometimes more, sometimes less. We have patterns we repeat. We have chaos we ride like a turbulent sea. I say it's about the listening, but so often it is about the nuts and bolts - this move goes here and this move lasts until here. Sometimes the listening gets lost. And yet, I tout that as the real deal, the meat of the project. So I ask myself, am I avoiding something? Am I creating obstacles? Am I killing the wild beauty of the thing by setting this and that, demanding details? Dunno. These are my questions of the day. Are these dances like golems? Going out into the world to do our bidding, but in actuality, revealing our subconscious desires and fears?